Don't be too focus

Thank God we are safe. Alhamdulillah. Next time I will not let my mind too focus on only one  specific thing. Don't take other things for granted. They are as important as the specific one.

I was too focus yesterday. My mind was only focus on  something. Other things were immaterial to me. This something that has occupied my mind might be the cause  for my indifference for other things. I wouldn't be bothered. I couldn't careless as if  for the moment I was so bogged down by this particular thing. My concentration, my actions and my senses were directed towards accomplishing what my mind wanted it to be.  Other than that were non-exist. Immaterial. I wanted to do only the thing.

Together with my wife ,we  carried along our grandson Ahmad Naqib to see her mama for breastfeeding at the hospital. Today Naqib refused to take the usual meals as a supplement to breast feeding.   Neither he liked to take mother milk through  bottled feeding nor spooned  feeding.  He appeared 'starving'. I must be quick to go to the hospital for Naqib to have breast feeding by her mama.

Once we were already in the car and ignited the engine, I put on reverse gear. Suddenly I  saw there was a black car at the back. The car was a little  fast otherwise we crashed. I stopped  the car for  a few seconds,  touched my chest and  was so relieved but I was a bit angry towards the driver of the black car. He shouldn't drove the car in parking area in that manner, so I thought.  'No brain' , I whispered to myself mixed with a little anger.

In that state of mind I put on the reverse gear again.  I heard  no alarm sound to alert me there were objects at the rear  that I should be aware of. The reverse continued, instead.

'Bangggg', shocking sound caught my ears. I had banged on a column.  I saw several nearby people looked at towards the sound.   I moved forward and stopped the car to check damage.

I couldn't believe it and was so sad for the car belong to my daughter which she recently bought it less than three months old. I could understand her feeling when this thing related to her then. But I must tell her. This sad happening I believe, would somehow 'disturb' her feeling. What more she was on a longer hour for on call duty, so tiring and less sleep. I was indeed spoiled her day which otherwise she could enjoy and relax.  

My anger towards the black car driver started to diminish for  I thought there would have been serious accident if the driver drove in a slow manner. The effects would have been worse as compared to crashing the column. Most probably there would be arguments between us defending ourselves, no body  at fault.   Of course I would point the fault to the driver for driving such a speed. And the driver would point finger to me because of my carelessness.  'Flying license' ? would probably uttered by the driver to belittle me. This would spark anger on my part. Same with him. Most probably would spark fighting between us.

'Oh  God, shame on us'.